Interest

The Interest for a fruitful life

“I dreamt a life where each day had a fruitful purpose and a night sleep satisfied. I woke from the dream to find a barren day and the night sleep unhappy.”

To make you understand about this interest I am talking about, ‘Interest’ is when you go after a girl, even when you have class in 5 minutes, it’s the dessert you have however full you are, it’s when you bunk a class for a movie, it’s something which gives us satisfaction beyond the loss we will endure from it. That kind of Interest is what I am trying to portray here.

The Interest here is beyond the simple examples I gave above. I am saying about the Interest which drives your life.

Interest is from within; it must be the driving force uninfluenced, untainted, and truthful. As always we tend to lose our interest midway in life because we are influenced or forced.

Interest, love, passion, all comes under the same club. All are the same kind of feeling with different names, it drives us, controls our thoughts, emotions, everything. To be interested in something brings out our best shows us our most creative, productive side.

I woke to find myself thinking “what the heck am I doing with my life?” showed me how uninterested I am with my life. When you are interested in something there will be joy when you wake up, a good helping of expectation will be there, a need to achieve something will occur but in an uninterested life only this ‘What the heck’ feeling occurs. How does this feeling begin? It is like you like chocolate and buy a Munch thinking it is full of chocolate but find the wafer. Anyway you finish the Munch uninterested; you don’t get the same joy like a bar of chocolate wanted. Joy is the end product of interest. Compromise kills it.

Never compromise in what you are interested, you will end up losing a lot more than you thought. Compromise is a killjoy. Try harder, strive for what you want, believe in your ideas, trust in yourself. Do not lose your true Interest by compromising.

I cannot bring myself to like something which I am not interested in. I will not work hard on it. Think of that I will not work on it; I will try to push it on someone else. I can never force my interest. Please I beg you don’t force Interest.

If you are doing something you are not interested in just quit it. Idea is not feasible huh??? Ok try, find time and spend it on the things you are interested. The feeling of satisfaction is awesome. It’s like the feeling a dancer has when he is dancing, an artist in his art, a photographer in his pictures, and this blog for me.

When I ask my friends what are they really interested in their answer is most likely to be ‘sleeping’ or ‘eating’. Come on guys don’t tell me you have lost your idea about what you are really interested in????? Be truthful to yourself find your real interest and feed it with your dreams. You will find better dreams when you find your true interest. And you can always find time to do what you are interested in, unlike your other uninteresting things.

To do something we need interest, it makes us to take the next step. It brings out the perfection within us.

Never compromise. Believe in yourself. Find your Interest.

Believe All. Trust None.

Live Life.

Careless wonderings

Darkness seems to be my only companion whatever I touch goes to ashes even when it promised me light. My insecurity is taking hold of me. I am losing myself in this abyss of darkness. Truth is playing hide and seek with me there too I am at the losing side. Dead ends seems to be where my path leads. Losing has become my habit. Dreams have gone down the drain. There is nobody to trust here in this darkness. Love seems to be avoiding me. Friends are becoming strangers to me. Pain and failure are being my companions now. The laughing stock of my peers is what I have become now. All hard work I do goes vain. When this climate changes, when the light rays hit me again are my questions now. Answers for these questions will make me love myself again!! These anticipations are worth to none. More consummate anticipation for all will come.





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