Farewell

I have been staring at the blank word document for hours to write about the last five years of my life. How do you write about wonderland? I believe that Lewis wrote Alice in wonderland when he was really high. Now I don’t think I can or will be such a creative genius (if you know what I mean).

Dreams are the lives we aspire to have. My five years was a dream. I had everything a college boy could have (except on the part of girlfriends other than that I had everything). Got to study in one of the best institutions, with the brightest, most outgoing, creative, strong (of both mind and body), most shy, introverted people. We were a class of misfits, the broken pieces which fit together perfectly to create the best canvas. Now having completed the five years, looking back I am going to miss all of it.

Yea it is all over. Our “kalloori” has end. Our “happy days” are over. 

We the outliers. 

We the exceedingly prodigious. 

We the talented. 

We the good for nothings. 

 

We the favourites. 

We the underdogs.

We the unstoppable force. 

We the immovable body. 

We the everything. 

We the nothing. 

We the extremes.

We took different paths to reach here but did not come here for this. Nobody told us it was going to be like this. Not one of us thought that our past five will turn out in such a style. Do we regret it? No, not even a little bit. We learned a lot. On the first day of college someone told "Look around you, they are going to be your friends for life". Five years has gone after that day. So many memories made which are hurting us now because we cannot have it anymore.  

It all began with this..... "Enga kannu?"

Me : "Peelamedu nga" *busla namla evlo mariyathaiya kekraanga* (This can happen only in kovai)

That was the beginning. Left the place which taught me how to speak properly, that everyone should be respected, built my confidence, gave me an identity, ability to face any problems, friends for life, and engineering. It was a learning process all along. It looks like it was all a dream.

Ini chicken token vaanga mudiyathu, ‘Chappathi day’  illa..... Time pass panna vimal illa.. Saturday night free night illa... 9.30ku mela vantha fine poduvaan gra bayam illa... ini outingeh illa... group movies illa..will miss these all and more... Life will go on.. 

We had seen all the extremes of a college life. Now we are taking on a new path much different than that terrifying path that took us here. Each with a different dream, different aspirations, different motives, but we took the same path till now. We have been taught life is neither going to be a bed of roses nor a bed of thorns. But we know we will not only survive but live our life because we have been taught that. Even if our memories grow weak, our own legs fail us, our eye sights dim a phone call to a friend can set anything right.

There will be times when life will look as if like nothing good can ever happen.. Remember.. We all believed ‘Arun Sfrh’ was from San Francisco for some period of time in our first year.. We all are that dumb.. so don’t believe everything you think :D

I can’t promise I am going to be there for you always we know it will be a lie. But I can promise you I will be just a phone call away.

Sense and Sensibility

This post has nothing to do with  Jane Austen's book.

 It is a long time since I posted here. Why did I take the hiatus?? No it was not a hiatus to rejuvenate my thoughts. It was because I just did not want to post whatever I wrote. I felt there was nothing good in it. I wanted to post only the best I could write up. Now looking back on all the time lost, if I didn't start write something at all, there is not going to be anything as my best.

Also another reason, in those weeks I was waiting for my best to come, is I have got my love, a long term crush which ripened. This love gave me a new view on everything I saw, it was my third eye. I had bought a camera. Now here too I am taking okay pictures. When I started learning more about this love of mine I found that it is not so unique or different. There more number of people with photography page than anything else. Just Google any three letters together followed by the word 'photography' you will surely have more than one hit. Just like the race I am from, my love is just another drop in the ocean. But just like life you have to find your place here too. And I will do it maybe slowly but definitely!

Another reason is that I had a lot of things going on in the past three months it was the start of my last semester in college and I had no clear idea about what I was going to do after that. I was waiting to get placed in a company which needs a production engineer. The company I was aiming for from beginning just came and went, it was one of those three companies (Latentview, Sagezza, Ford India) for which I did not clear the first round (I cleared the first rounds of all the other companies(Musigma, ITC InfoTech, ITC ABD, Hyundai, Capegemini, Page Industries) I attended, interviews were my only problem). Now was the time to panic and I started to think I am good for nothing (Yeah! how could I be so naive?). Now when you are in despair mode you can kind of look at things clearly and you stop waiting for things to happen. That happened to me. I stopped waiting and started to do the list. I had compiled a list of things to do before I finish college. I joined a multimedia course, made my long term crush my love (photography), made about 10 friends from Coimbatore to come home in Nagercoil, started going to all the best hotels in Coimbatore, attended a literature festival even if it had to be all alone, started doing the events I had planned in my college, organised a trekking, got placed in Titan Company Limited. So I learned you can't wait for anything to happen, you go out and do the things you like. Everything else falls into place that is when life happens. When life was happening I wanted to show only my best here. Now I am learning that it was wrong.

How do you measure best?? Do you measure it by the amount of effort that got into it or by how that effort has turned out? There is no proper scale on what is called best. My best is how much dearly I want to say it and the world to read it. And there is no glory in it.

That is to say, I will be posting shitty content and I am open for debate on everything I post because it is not my best yet (and my views change with new information!!!).

Live life.

Believe all, trust none.

Happy New Year

The New Year has started and few days are gone and they are not coming back, New Year resolutions are slowly going down the drain. It’s late to wish a happy new year, still, a happy new year is what I want and most people want. So wish everyone gets what they want. At least this year try to do more good than the previous years, maybe you can help more people (other than your friends) who can’t repay you. You can begin by sponsoring food for the next homeless person you meet other than giving out as money. Or even easier give your old good clothes to the orphanages close to you. If you have no time even for that you can at least give the next bald person you meet your comb. They can’t repay the same help to you. There is a unexplainable joy in it. Cherish it. Do more good.