This post has nothing to do with Jane Austen's book.
It is a long time since I posted
here. Why did I take the hiatus?? No it was not a hiatus to rejuvenate my
thoughts. It was because I just did not want to post whatever I wrote. I felt
there was nothing good in it. I wanted to post only the best I could write up.
Now looking back on all the time lost, if I didn't start write something at
all, there is not going to be anything as my best.
Also another reason, in those
weeks I was waiting for my best to come, is I have got my love, a long term
crush which ripened. This love gave me a new view on everything I saw, it was
my third eye. I had bought a camera. Now here too I am taking okay pictures.
When I started learning more about this love of mine I found that it is not so
unique or different. There more number of people with photography page than
anything else. Just Google any three letters together followed by the word
'photography' you will surely have more than one hit. Just like the race I am
from, my love is just another drop in the ocean. But just like life you have to
find your place here too. And I will do it maybe slowly but definitely!
Another reason is that I had a
lot of things going on in the past three months it was the start of my last
semester in college and I had no clear idea about what I was going to do after
that. I was waiting to get placed in a company which needs a production
engineer. The company I was aiming for from beginning just came and went, it
was one of those three companies (Latentview, Sagezza, Ford India) for which I
did not clear the first round (I cleared the first rounds of all the other
companies(Musigma, ITC InfoTech, ITC ABD, Hyundai, Capegemini, Page Industries)
I attended, interviews were my only problem). Now was the time to panic and I
started to think I am good for nothing (Yeah! how could I be so naive?). Now
when you are in despair mode you can kind of look at things clearly and you
stop waiting for things to happen. That happened to me. I stopped waiting and
started to do the list. I had compiled a list of things to do before I finish
college. I joined a multimedia course, made my long term crush my love (photography),
made about 10 friends from Coimbatore to come home in Nagercoil, started going
to all the best hotels in Coimbatore, attended a literature festival even if it
had to be all alone, started doing the events I had planned in my college,
organised a trekking, got placed in Titan Company Limited. So I learned you
can't wait for anything to happen, you go out and do the things you like. Everything
else falls into place that is when life happens. When life was happening I
wanted to show only my best here. Now I am learning that it was wrong.
How do you measure best?? Do you
measure it by the amount of effort that got into it or by how that effort has
turned out? There is no proper scale on what is called best. My best is how
much dearly I want to say it and the world to read it. And there is no glory in
it.
That is to say, I will be posting
shitty content and I am open for debate on everything I post because it is not
my best yet (and my views change with new information!!!).
Live life.
Believe all, trust none.
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