“By what right do I say the things
I say? Who taught me? Why do I do it? For all these questions the answer is you
and me. I took the liberty to say the things I say and you allowed it to reach you.
You taught me everything and you have no idea about it. I do it because this is
the only way I can freely tell you that I have learned from you. But if you ask
me am I right? My answer will be I have no idea.”
To start over from the beginning,
wake up from a slumber and find that we have no idea of the people around us
was the thought which made me write this. I have seen too many movies with this
idea; still this thought intrigues me a lot. If I happen to lose my memory till
date wonder how my friends will react. Will I make the same friends again? What
will my parents think? Will I make the same mistakes? Would I choose
engineering? What kind person will I be? Will I change??
I think I will change. If I look
back in my life certain moments that happened in it makes me what I am today.
That maths teacher I had in my first standard who taught me the ‘borrowing
system’ and told my class that she is not afraid even if your father is a
policeman. That fourth class teacher who gave a funny look at me when I put my
name for the dance competition and the same teacher who gave ‘I knew you don’t
have it in you’ look when I chickened out of the competition without even
putting an effort. The friend who told ‘come let’s eat together’ for the first
time even when he knew I spent my lunch break with my sister. When the result
was late to deliver the dream I had that I had been detained. The teacher who
showed me that I was good in maths. The numerous radios I broke, the small
adapters I opened, the screw driver cuts I had when opening something tight.
The friend who was with me through everything. The friend I never had. The enemies
I never made. The friend I lost for no reason at all. These people small or
very large make me what I am today. If I had to start over, I won’t have them
to teach me those small things which make me the person I show off today. It is
a bitter place we’re living today. I won’t get the same people under the same
circumstances again; I will hate the people I love now if I get a bad
experience with them. I am sure I am not going to wake up one day and have no
memory of the people around me. To start over with no memory of anything maybe
a good idea for fiction but in reality to be a different person with different
experiences will have no difference in you. You will want to start over again.
Every moment in our life that happened to date has left an impact in the person
you are. You can’t change what you have become though there may be a chance to
change in future. Do something good in your change. But I do not want any
change in the life I am having now. Change is happening every day I don’t want
a sudden one. Yesterday is not like today. Today is a whole lot different from
tomorrow.
Live Life!
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